I am full of uncertainties.

I don't know where I am going to live in three weeks, I am going to be working with psyciatric patients, and I don't know where I am going to get the money to go to school. 

I am overwhelmed with all the options I have that are being presented to me, and confused by the fact that none of them have a concrete bottom.

I am tired beyond belief. And I can't fall asleep.

I am ceritan of only one thing. God is love. He knows what my tomorrow holds. He knows. He knows where I will rest my head in three weeks, and where I will rest it in three years. He knows. Why do I fret when I know him and I know that the God of the universe has this whole thing worked out? 

 

Lord please help me to rest in your arms toning. Help me know that you do know. 

I love you. Thank you for loving me even when I do not trust.

My first Photo Workshop with my Dear Mother!!

Home sick

Home is a wonderful place. 

Right now I am talking a place. I know that family is what really makes someplace home,

 but in all honosty, I miss a place. As I look through pictures that fill my photo library,

 most of those pictures are taken in Nevada County. 

I love it there. 

I love the small town, and I love the one thrift shop that had so many good deals. I love the back roads that twist and turn round and round, yet they all come out on the other side, right where you wanted to end up.

 I miss the beauty that the Lake brought. I miss enjoying the other peoples money that they put into their landscaping. I miss the pool, and playgrounds that bring me back to my swim team days. I miss the school down the street, with the basketball hoops that have touched my basketball so many times. I even miss how the tap water tastes. 

I miss my back yard, and the trees that would cry leaves every fall. 

I miss my Butterscotch cat. 

I knew how long it would take me to get to Grandmas house, 

minutes that would fit on one hand. 

I miss Junes Cafe and Deli.

 I miss Woodland Loop. Doesn't that name sound enchanted? 

Woodland Loop.

It feels like winter (finally)...

 The wind is blistery, and my whole being feels frozen in time (esp. my brain). I have so much I need to accomplish, and yet it seems impossible to grow/learn when the world is cold. 

Last night it was pouring rain, 

I needed to do something productive with my night,

 so I got my workout pants on and headed down to the little gym in the dorm.

 All the machines were full... 

this gym is extremely small, and though there were many machines that were open, 

the only three that work well were in use.

So plan B came to mind. I dropped my book off, and headed outside. 

The wind was extreme.

 The rain was marvoulus and I was on cloud 9.

 One of my favorite things to do is to run in the rain. (But I seem to forget this, when I start becoming frightened by the weather.) 

It saved my soul last night. 

It brought me life,

 and the Lord was close to

 me. 

Sparkles

I am at he coffee shop today to study my pharm! Yeah for days of leisure. (I am not even being sarcastic.) 

Anyway, I have decided that little children are so charming. I have seen so many different little people and each one of them has a magnetic effect on me. Is it because they are small and innocent? or because they have a twinkle that disappears as we grow up... I am not sure, but something happens as we become less of children and more respondsible. Does life just become too overwhelming to continue to sparkle anymore? 

We as Christians are suppose to give all our worries to  the Lord, so if we do that will we regain the sparkle that once filled our eyes? 

Any way, children make the world a better place. I am thankful even to see them around at the coffee shop. :)

Have a lovely day.

Birthday #4

Mia and her profile as the sun was rising on Monday morning!!

Man, God is soooo amazing. I Love that fact that He chooses to speak to me though beauty.

(I love to photoshop!)

Mia and I on our hike in Napa on Sunday after church.

(We always wind up sweaty when we hang out!)

I had a lovely birthday, from the moment that I woke up and gave out my first meds in the hospital, to having my dear mother come out to see me for a birthday lunch. I had a lovely time at dinner with my friends at dinner, and Mia made my weekend wonderful.

I thank God for all the blessings that He has put in my life.

Birthday # 3

My birthday dinner was fantastic!!

Tanzi is amazing, but she is scared to admit it!

Chelsea and Jacki, I love them.

Me and Amanda! I love that girl ;)